sometimes_i_get

Lately it feels like no matter what I say or do, no one cares. People lose track of conversation with me, cut my stories short, don't read my emails and so on. Am I really this boring? Do I not say interesting things anymore?

I've been told that I'm too fast to give advice. I'm trying to stop doing that. But that means that basically whether someone talks to me, half of the time I end up verbally patting their backs and keeping silent otherwise. And I don't know how to answer questions about my life.

"What's up?" Nothing. Nothing's up. I work, I go home, I chat with couple of friends, I go to sleep. I watch tv, I crochet, I read a little. Who wants to know about that tv series I've watched? About that perfect doily I've found? Apparently, no one. Because as soon as I start talking about crocheting instead of simply showing people finished things, the interest fades.

It just makes me so sad when I see someone's eyes glazing over and their attention drifting when I talk about something that interests ME instead of something related directly to them. Do you really think I'm always interested in whatever bothers you right now? Do you really think I WANT to give advice all the time? Can't you at least try to be interested in me too?